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Published on May 8, 2010 in Politics and Skye. 0 Comments

What the hell?

…UCAS? My offer has been declined, because I didn’t answer you on time? Well, maybe if you’d bothered to send me the letter I never had through the mail, maybe I might have bothered to respond.

I hate this country so much. And I hate our political election system. Proportional representation, please. I mean, seriously? When your country shares a system with similarities to America, where the illuminati parade their existence on the dollar, I think it’s quite self-evident that there’s a problem.

Let’s hope that it’s at least a slight victory for the Liberal Democrats, and we have a coalition government. I’d love to see Conservatives-Liberal Democrats, really. I’d prefer Liberal, but, Conservative has always been my second choice. Anything to keep Labour out of government. I’m a little concerned about the possibility of Proportional Representation though. It would literally make things impossible for conservatives…so, they’re highly unlikely to agree to that. Their whole party relies on unfairness. Even if they are pretty good at doing what’s best for our country. The last thing I’d want is for Labour to have any part in government…which they would. But, hey…a victory for the Liberals is the only thing that counts.

Anyhow, I could talk politics to myself forever. I have Philosophy notes to organise and type.

On a side note…did I actually ever tell you my grade for that?

It was an A/B. An ‘A’ overall, in case anyone was wondering. Completely forgot about that.

Stuff S would rather have not known.

Published on April 18, 2010 in Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Oh great. Another WP update to do.

Anyhow. Uhm – so…I have my Philosophy results now. Although have is a funny word…see, they’re actually still sitting in their envelope. I’m terrified – and I’m not opening them til monday. Which is also, I guess, a lie…because I’m never opening them. I’ll get someone else to do it for me. I’d rather set fire to the envelope and never know, to be honest. But that’s ridiculous.

Also…what the hell!? My old DeviantART account…I was quite shocked that it had recieved over 62,000 pageviews…but…to find out that one of my quick school ‘fanart’ doodles from Year 11 was one favourite from 1000? And to also see that my half-hearted attempt at a sloppy painting tutorial which I did in inkscape (which basically, due to .jpg saving, deleted all ‘i’s from my explanation) and pretty much rushed through…to find out that that has over 200 favourites, and has been viewed 20,000+ times? D:!!!!!! It’s a surprise, since my new account hasn’t even reached 10,000 views yet. Which means that my tutorial has been viewed twice as much on my old account as my entire new account…and each one of my deviations on my S-o-C fanart gallery has been favourited more times, individually, than my entire new original art gallery.

If that isn’t proof of how superficial the internet is…then…I’ll eat my metaphorical hat.

Seriously, if you don’t believe me…

It’s a little sad, really…because that was back when I used a mouse. My painting was awful when I used a mouse.

I guess this is a wake up call for me to do another tutorial, isn’t it?

The post in which S talks too much.

Published on April 15, 2010 in Skye. 0 Comments

Well that was fortunate.  I nearly forgot my password for a second there.

I suppose that’s what you get for not saving your old firefox passwords on a regular basis. Other than that, the lack of cookie files, the fact that half of my files are still on my iPod video; and the fact that whenever I boot up a 3000×5000 px or larger piece of art on the GIMP, combined with MSN, iTunes and FF; my computer finds it necessary to tell me that I “don’t have enough RAM”, this new PC isn’t so bad.

It looks like Windows 7, thanks to some lengthy modifications…so, that’s a step up from my old vista theme. And everything’s a lot neater, when you only have half of your files. It’s a little slow though. I’ll have to defrag every once and a while and keep my HD free, to compensate. I kind of feel bad now, for complaining about my Shuttle PC; when I didn’t defragment it once in the whole 2 years or so I had it.

Shame. Shame I have absolutely no idea which part of it needs to be replaced, either.

Oh; and business cards. There’s another update.  So…I recieved my 500 cards in the mail. Quickly delivered, of course…and that’s about all I was impressed with. The print job was awful, and the size wasn’t even business card size. So I went with a more local printer and they turned out perfect! Not only that, but also, they must have sent me way too many or something; because I have 300-something cards. <3 And the envelope people sent me an extra 14…so, I have 264 finished and packaged, signed envelopes with cards in. I’m handing the rest of the cards out as normal, but I’ll probably throw in an enveloped one once and a while.

I’ll probably update sometime later with a photograph of them, when my camera shows itself.

And in recent S news, S is deeply considering seeking some sort of…well…psychiatric help is a bit much for an explanation. Just…something? I don’t know. Depression medication would be nice. I’m a bit stumped, really. I’ve been thinking about it for about four years; but whenever I get close, I tell myself that it’s a bad idea. That it’ll go down on my permenant record of being crazy.  Eugh. I don’t know. I guess I’m just frustrated, and a bit angry with everything right now. At people, for not realising when to leave me alone…and at myself, for not being able to tell them to leave me alone. And everything else, of course. Exam stress, not being able to get things finished…the fact that I’ve just lost both my Biology and English essays (from the holidays), due to this whole computer malfunction. I just feel like there’s no point in anything anymore. D: That I might as well just give up. :B I guess i just feel depressed all of the time…and nobody is willing, or perhaps able to help me.

Which I suppose is where the contemplation of seeking help comes in. Somehow it seems like the only person in the world that I can talk about all this to is half way across the world…and if there’s anyone here; well; they probably wouldn’t want to waste their time with me. What’s going through my head right now is…a bit weird to explain in text, on the internet…and the last thing anyone wants is to end up being noticed; and then to have all of that pulled back from the depths of cyberspace. So I’m not going to explain to you, you metaphorical, non-existent, possibly metaphysical readers of mine. I’m not going to go into depth with it…because…well, you probably wouldn’t know what the hell I was talking about anyway.

Either way…whatever it is that I have to say – but can’t to the vast expanse of the internet – the bottom line still stands. I like how things are. I like how things are going. And I don’t want them to change. There’s nothing wrong with the way I am (or at least, nothing in the sociological sense), and there’s no reason for me to start conforming to everyone else’s norms now – as there never has been a point in it anyway. So, no. People can try all they like; but it’s not going to happen. I’ve been a mess for 10 years, and as horrible as it is to be that way, it’s all I know now. Better I work things out with the rationalist approach, than go all empirical.

Cardsss <3

Published on March 26, 2010 in Skye and Updates. 0 Comments

This week was a good week. Minus the horrible sickness and insomnia I’ve been feeling towards the end of the week. D:

On the plus side; I was informed that I did in fact write at A grade standard on my Philosophy papers…so I was given the wrong mark. I’m not really fussed if they give me another B on my remark, to be honest. Just knowing that I’m not a failure is good enough.

And I just finished a huge several-week-long task about three minutes ago, when I placed my £50 order for 500 business cards. I’m really surprised at how cheap they turned out – especially since I upped the features to double-sided glossy colour, foil and 3 day delivery. Some time next week, I should be sliding them into the little black envelopes that came today.

As it goes, though, I preferred the blue colouring on the cards to the red. I asked a few people, and apparently the red was a bit harsh…which has made me think a little about the site design. I never did manage to incorporate blue into it. Well, I’m about to correct that with some portraiture. I’m off to paint a colour portrait for the main page. I’m not sure how, or what theme I’m going for…but, I figured I should do something, since my current enter page is just a rush job that I made so I could put everything else in motion.